Friday, November 10, 2006 iloveYOU ;
moved
goodbye.
the one which stuck by me for. uhm. 3 yrs.
I wanna be the one there
To draw you pictures and play with your hair
Virginia beach isnt too far away from you
Maybe this summer it wont be for me too.
heh. couldnt resist adding a few more lines to my last entry :)
goodbye.
this time, for real.
x 11:47 PM
iloveYOU ;
so today,
i realised there is no such thing as freedom of expression of emotions
so we have to watch what we say. to everyone.
not just certain people.
to everyone.
yet, ive found one person i can do so to, someone i can really talk to, who pulls me up whenever i fall, who's willing to listen to me rant. who's always there for me no matter what
miss laura lee :)
and im damn thankful for her.
<3
its so sad that i got to know her better only after hockey ended.
oh well.
im contemplating on closing this blog.
since there's really nothing much i talk abt.
except whine.
on a lighter note,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA POO
im so sorry i forgot today's the 9th.
i heart you plenty :)
after a's i'll get ur stuff k!
x 1:38 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006 iloveYOU ;
sway says:
being vulnerable is not as bad as people make it to be
sway says:
should think of your vulnerability as a gift
sway says:
to people whom you love
food for thought.
but i still disagree. somehow.
then we started on the freedom of expression of emotions
screw gp la.
i dont believe in the freedom of expression of emotions.
towards some people, i dont.
because i dont want them to see my weakest side.
and i try to suppress them in my blog. note the word. TRY.
but then again, expressing our emotions keep us feeling human and sane.
but i'd still stick to my belief. whether anyone likes it or not.
for now, at least.
okay shall blog properly when my brain's functioning.
fuck maths.
you're so cute when u're slurring your speech
but they're closing the bar and they want us to leave
and you cant find nothing at all
if there was nothing there all along.
cuz i built you a home in my heart
with rotten wood
it decayed from the start
i built.
and watched it rot.
slowly.
but there was nothing there all along.
there was nothing there all along.
x 1:58 AM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006 iloveYOU ;
im feeling freaking lazy to start on stats
im feeling quite high.
but i dont know why
hey it rhymes.
[and i didnt do it on purpose]
bang bang he shot me down
bang bang i hit the ground
bang bang that awful sound
bang bang my baby shot me down
miss laura lee
hi hi apple pie
oh yes how true.
oh yes, while studying today. i overheard another interesting convo
wait. eavesdropped
some girl was gushing abt...
LESMANA
omg please dont be all egoistic after this. haha
lesmana, i know you read my blog religiously.
AVID READER WHAT. right.
so yes. im telling you, someone thinks u're cute
but she must be really blind.
HAHA
okay toren, like what lesmana said, stick to your principles.
stick stick stick.
arrgh. hard but. argh have to.
HAVE TO. okay. no other option.
x 1:23 PM
iloveYOU ;
this envelope will represent my heart.
I'll seal it send it off and wish it luck with its depart.
And this stamp will be every action that carried my affection:
Across the air and land and sea.
But should I trust the postage due,
To deliver my heart to you?
Every page I tried my best to fill with something to contest;
With inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say.
I'll give you all I can,
A flower and a hand.
I hope this helps you see.
Signed, sincerely me.
x 12:03 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006 iloveYOU ;
okay so while studying today
i heard this couple talking about marriage
okay, not heard.
i EAVESDROPPED.
so the conversation went like this:
the girl really doesnt want to marry
but the guy's very insistent.
pretty amusing.
but i found what the woman said was true
about the financial insecurities, the drastic changes she has to learn to adapt to, the effect on her career, blahblahblah
and the guy's like NONONO can be solved! borrow money! loan from banks!
hahaha. right.
my brain feels saturated with:
cos(90 - x) = sinx
[FeSCN(H2O)5]+2
... and the list goes on
omg. please kill me
Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you
But I'm missing you
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger, ah
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to,
do you have to let it linger
x 11:54 PM
iloveYOU ;
FOCUS focus focus focus focus
this is the length of my attention span right now : .
[a dot]
i think im burnt out
and im pretty worried
:(
dear polysaccarides, proteins & lipids:
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
though not by me, for sure.
hurhur
not funny.
die, food chem, die.
die die die
die die die
okay so i had this really weird thought the other day:
abt what car i would want to bang me down, should i get knocked down by a car
yes i believe studying has made me psychotic.
funny thing is,
im not scared of death.
well at least not as much as i used to fear it.
okay i think im going mad here
so i shall sleep before i start saying even weirder and more psychotic stuff.
and everyone would start to think im suffering from some mental disorder
goodnight world, sleep sweet.
x 1:32 AM
Sunday, November 05, 2006 iloveYOU ;
guys are starting to disgust me
the guy using the toilet before me, peed on the seat.
and i had to wipe HIS pee away before i use the toilet
like. DUDE. the toilet bowl's how freaking big. im sure ur ....'s much smaller than that.
AIM. u're freaking 30 yrs old and u cant even pee properly.
like even if u cant aim, at least, CLEAN UP.
dont let others do it for YOU. it's YOUR pee.
irresponsible.
most guys are anyway.
maybe it's innate or something. whatever la.
suddenly, i DONT want A's to be over.
i dont know why.
i like how it's keeping me very busy and occupied.
And everything that I said was true,
As the flashes blinded us in the photobooth.
Well, I lost track, and then those words were said.
You took the wheel and you steered us into my bed.
Soon we woke and I walked you home,
And it was pretty clear that it was hardly love.
And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will rush your hard heart away.
You were so condescending.
And this is all that's left:
Scraping paper to document.
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on.
x 2:00 AM
Saturday, November 04, 2006 iloveYOU ;
Sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down
I say it's all because of you
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I cant explain what you cant explain.
You're finding things that you didnt know
I look at you with such disdain thoughts
this is what i've learnt to do.
and im getting better and better at it.
haha went through some classroom pictures
and i noticed this:
i was always either talking on the phone or busy typing a message
HUR. but that was then. when my bills were high
x 1:19 AM
Friday, November 03, 2006 iloveYOU ;
screwed gp.
aq and summary were fucked up.
i really dont understand why everyone's so fucking obesessed with grades
i really hate the strong empahsis on results.
it really doesnt prove anything. so what if u're good at memorising benzene rings, math formulas that really dont make sense and all that shit? what's the whole point
orph, thanks for the sweets :)
saw this old couple on the train today and they really made my heart melt :)
I wanna make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all i wanna do, is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice, growing old with you
i realise all my obsessions die fast
like. my nachos obession.
ew. the mere SMELL of nachos now makes me queasy.
im like sushi-crazy now though :)
hurhur.
yes, we all learn from our bad choices.
even with food.
hur.
so despite the fucked up gp paper, the possibility of me failing a levels and the emotional outburst, today was still kinda okay :) heh.
just finished laguna beach ep 11. okay im just going to be a bimbo and blog abt it:
alex is such an asshole. he dumped rocky cuz he said she was too intense and cared too much abt him. and blamed her when he had committment issues. and while she was like trying desperately to salvage the whole thing, he went to like meet new girls, have fun and stuff. like wtf.
first he dumps rocky, then flirts with other girls immediately after the breakup, in front of her.
and when rocky went on a date with some guy, alex called her a slut and said she's trying to make him jealous. and called her a crazy bitch.
what gives him the right to flirt around while rocky cant? he had absolutely no right to call her a slut. while she's bawling her eyes out for him, he was flirting around. so, who's the slut.
and then derek dumps tessa and then hooked up with brenna. like uhm?
what's wrong with guys nowadays
emotionless heartless creatures
okay im just stereotyping.
i hope.
and it's just a show.
x 12:02 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 iloveYOU ;
i learnt 2 pick up lines today
courtesy of anghweeying. who got them from lesmana.
hi im finding a treasure. can i start from your chest?
did you just fart? beacause you just blew me away.
okay lame but i found them hilarious. it's lesmana's pickup lines.
chemistry drove us nuts.
found this while going through my pics. i miss.
Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember til you're home again
You belong to me
x 2:02 AM
Tuesday, October 31, 2006 iloveYOU ;
secret heart
why so mysterious
why so sacred
why so serious
maybe you're just acting tough
or maybe you're just not man enough
what's wrong
oh let let a man in your secret heart
this very secret
that you're trying to conceal
is the very same one
that you're dying to reveal
go tell them how you feel
go tell them how you feel.
caramel macchiato. deathcabforcutie. stacks of notes. feist. sushi. jacket. ice blended green tea. ourlittlecorner. barefoot. gatekeeper. calculators. iwillfollowyouintothedark. screaming kids. marks&spencer. strawberry ricola. do you have to let it linger.
today, i discovered that:
the internal energy is the sum of random distribution of the microscopic kinetic and potential energies within a body.
Al2O3 350 degrees - dehydrating agent
H3PO4 300 degrees 65atm - hydration of alkenes
gah.
x 1:56 AM
Saturday, October 28, 2006 iloveYOU ;
shopping
right?
Step one: light me on fire
step two: walk clean away
I wont burn long
and evidence of your done wrong will be gone
in seconds I swear
x 9:47 PM